Not much. That's all I've really been able to say to people when they ask me what I've been up to. There is probably ten hours throughout each week during which I actually have commitments. The rest is just waiting around. At first it was pretty rad. Wake up late. Stay up late. I got to do what I wanted. But now I would kill to have a job, even if its just to fill in the empty parts of my schedule. I've applied to more places than I can remember ranging from UPS to the NBPD.
I've had a hard time coming to terms with the fact that, while I'm called not to be idle, however hard I try the opportunities aren't coming. So I'm waiting. And I don't like that so much. But maybe that's the point...
Ryan,
ReplyDeleteI'll be praying that God directs you toward the right opportunities. I know it can be hard in that "in between time" when you're waiting to see what's next.
While you wait, use the time to do things you won't be able to do once you have a tighter schedule. Spend time with others. Write letters. Read more.
The time itself may be a gift.
I agree with Darin, maybe this time is a gift. During this time of waiting, I'm sure its been so tempting just to put yourself in relax and autopilot mode but don't forget that God has a gift to reveal to you each day whether small or big even if you don't leave the house. I know that's what I've really been working on... taking each day one by one and opening myself to hear God's voice each day even tho my days can seem kinda redundant.
ReplyDeleteI think you're right, that may be the point. I'm praying for patience and for the Lord to fulfill you and use you in new ways during this time.
ReplyDeletePraying, brother. It's hard to stay idle sometimes. Don't equate this season of stillness/waiting with time that is useless... As I look back on the past, the abundance of free time I had with God everyday to do whatever was the hugest blessing. Take that time to really be led by the Spirit into places/experiences that you would normally overlook with a full schedule.
ReplyDeletehey ryan I am praying for you. I know what that feels like! I would definitely recommend you do things out of the ordinary schedule you have had and are hoping to have. and if you seriously need something to do, come volunteer at my work... we are sorting through medical donations and packing donations for shipments to send to Japan. : ) maybe go to the beach, paint your room, if you have some cash then go somewhere... go camping! : )
ReplyDeleteSometimes Gods plan for us is never easy. My girlfriend recently just came away from not having a job, and she found herself in your shoes. She had all sorts of free time, but she is a planner and had nothing to fill it with. During that time, she actively sought what God wanted her to do and went after opportunities that she normally would have overlooked. Because of that she now has been offered an opportunity of her dreams, and God has finally taken her out of the similar place you are in. So hang in there and trust what God is doing, and actively pursue those things you might not ever do because you normally would not have the time to do so, because things can be marvelously amazing!
ReplyDeleteRyan...I know EXACTLY how this feels! I was laid off from my job last March...and didn't find anything until the end of August. At first, like you said, it was AWESOME...but then, it became so difficult to WAIT, and even more difficult to use my time well! I don't think I did use my time well... so I would encourage you to think about what you'd really love to get out of this free time, and do it! When it goes back to the busyness and hectic of normal life, you'll sometimes want that time back :-) Praying for you my friend!
ReplyDeleteI feel like most of the time everyone is TOO busy rushing around and trying to fit too much into their schedules. I know you don't want me to say that you are lucky, but you are because you can spend a ton of time with God. I always wish I had more time. And I also know the flip side too where you have too much time. Each is hard in it's own way. I pray that God will bring you peace and patience in your time waiting.
ReplyDeletePraying for you Ry! for Lord to console and show you the vibrant and active work of His Spirit that is always going on beneath our circumstances.
ReplyDeleteHold fast, brother! He is faithful!
Praying for you.
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